Yikes! Sounds like you do not have anything if that is all you have. In this case, you cannot choose to worship at either institution for the have apostatized and have been so for a long time. You are in good company for many people find themselves in a similar situation. IF this is the situation you have, you cannot attend a false church as it would be in disobedience to God, so you do what you can with what you have been given. Many people read Scripture, doctrinal books, listen to sermons online (from faithful teachers of the Word), and read sermons. The Highway has lots of good material to help you. I don't have an accurate count but think that there is somewhere between 1,600 and 1,700 books, articles, sermons, Bible study helps and resources on this site. Surely, if you were to read through all of them, you would grow in your knowledge of God and your faith in time.

The Chestnut Mare