I'm at a loss to understand biblical eschatology.

I believe what is written in Scripture on this and every other subject, but, to a perhaps greater degree than most others, and also to a greater degree than other biblical topics, I struggle to understand it.

By default I tend toward a mix of mostly amillenialism but with very slight partial preterist leanings. E.g., I can see how a part of Matt. 24 and other prophecy could refer at least in part to the destruction of Jerusalem in AD 70. But there remains a great deal that could not, at least, not without jumping through some of the same kinds of eisegetical hoops more characteristic of Dispensationalists.

Is it OK that I simply believe the words of Scripture for now, and leave the more detailed study of end times until a later time when I have better grasped the fundamentals of the Cross, of Mercy, of repentance and faith, and of love toward God and others? Not that eschatology is unimportant, but it just seems like a less urgent area of study because of my failings in seemingly more important areas, as well as the fact that I'm just not smart enough to get much of it?

Aspiring student of Christ