Gotcha! I can say the same. Today I broke out a book that I've had for about five years called "If I believe, Why do I have all of these doubts." Whew! Long title, but I recall back in the summer of 2000 this was the only book I could find that came remotely close to identifying with my intense agony at the time. I've decided to go back through it in hopes that it'll offer a bit of help. The only thing now I guess is that I need to do a little research on the author, Lynn Anderson. The book was endorsed by Bill Hybels so...I don't know...I'll glean what I can out of it and hope that it helps. Thanks again for sharing Kyle and may the Lord grant you grace to stand.

tj
"-that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection..."