C.M.H.,

You might do well to read this: Objections: Answered. There is also a whole battery of articles about predestination here: Predestination Index.

To give a short answer, your will is never contrary to God's ultimate plan; you may have sinful desires and motives, and your choices may be evil, but every choice you make fits perfectly into God's plan. If it didn't, and God had to have some kind of plan B just in case you didn't do as He originally planned, then you'd have a God once again who is neither all-knowing nor all-powerful. Nevertheless, you do make your choices! God doesn't make your choices for you. You make them, according to your own will, desires, motives, etc.

"The heart of man plans his way, but the LORD directs his steps" (Prov. 16:9).

As far as Satan is concerned, I will wait until you have answer Pilgrim's question to provide a fuller answer. But for now I encourage you to read the first couple chapters of Job and see how Satan works there.

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I am just trying to quiet the war in my head of hearing myself at every decision I make questioning whether it be my choice, Gods choice through predestination and why I am making that choice in either case..

When you make a choice, it is always your choice. The fact that God has ordained everything doesn't negate that.

Kyle

I tell you, this man went down to his house justified.