I am stuck trying to find truth in "Reformed vs Non-Reformed" theologies... I have grown up in a church and family that is non reformed and due to that tend to have a hard time finding truth in the reformed theology. However, as each day passes I find myself noticing things that could only be explained by some of the reformed ideas, (predestination and such).. And here is the problem I have.. The argument always seems to be that non reformed people are trying to protect human "rights" or something close to, and reformed people are trying to protect Gods sovereignty. In a court room setting like this argument is so often portrayed for me, I would have to say that the reformers are correct because God has the power and the right to do ANYTHING he wants to do.. But is it in His character to do so? For example: In Numbers God uses Moses to deliver his people from Egypt. He shows them miracle after miracle and yet they still in the end say that God could not give them the promised land... (Moses walks them through the sea on dry land, pillar of fire for warmth at night, cloud for coolness during the day while tracking the desert, food and water were provided while in the desert) here is the kicker for me, they get to the promised land and God tells Moses to send 12 scouts in.. Why would God tell Moses to send scouts in? God surely knew that the land they were at was the land he promised.. Its as if God wants the people to hear from other people what God has been saying all along.. SO the 12 scouts go in, 10 come out saying that the land is all it was said to be but too many obstacles stood between them and it, and 2 of them said it was all it was promised to be and they could take it.. The people voted NOT to go in and take it even though God promised the land to them.. When the people did this God got VERY angry and threatened to kill them all and Moses stood up for the people and God decided that they would wander the desert for 40 years until most of them died (all over the age of 20) so that their kids could inherit the land... My question is this, from a non reformed view, this makes total sense.. God creates a decision to be made and gave in my opinion MORE than sufficient evidence that He is capable of giving them the land and the people rejected... From a reformed view, God would have predestined this people to deny Him at that point in time and then get mad about it.. Is that no different than lining dominos up in a row a specific way and then when they all fall according to plan getting upset that they did not go where they "belong" per se?? However, from either perspective I am also confused on how Moses "talked" God out of killing everyone in His anger... I apologize for the length of this but I am so very confused