sojourner, first off im a guy. Understandable mistake. Nowhere in scripture does it teach that we can chose between good and evil. It is our nature to chose evil as i showed earlier. Unless you understand mans depravity, i personally will no long argue other biblical doctrines. You can garantee i will pray for you though. Maybe it would be best if you started another post on mans total depravity. Here are 2 short books you could read by aw pink.
http://www.pbministries.org/books/pink/Depravity/depravity.htm
http://www.pbministries.org/books/pink/Impotence/impotence.htm
Here is an article on this site about total depravity
http://www.the-highway.com/depravity_Boettner.html


BTW i am a supralapsarian. here is an article you could read defending it. http://www.5solas.org/media.php?id=553